Unfocused

I am so as much,
kissed by pain;
cursed by bliss.
confused which to absorb.
I cant believe any,
what I am capable of.
As if success, a prerogative.
but, cant trust the endeavor.
just driving, for a smoother path.
with a hope of betterment.
I am vexed between, hope and belief.
death wont be peaceful either,
but an incomplete debt.
roads clash for eternity.
deep plans, evanescence;
for a newer rumination.
in this brevity of unexplored worlds,
i hid my destination.
just Unfocused Somewhere.